March 23rd, 2006

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There is a huge hole..

..Where a piece is missing, where the hurt felt is not even of me, it is of you. Know that these abilities which I never before heard of anyone describing.. except maybe in "fantasy" or comics.. I feel Anne, I felt her for months, even from huge distances, there exists a bond between us so strong that I know the sensations I feel are not from within me but from within her and they are being transferred to me spiritually and now the pain is so intense.. it has been so intense.. I feel so bad Anne.

It hurts to try so hard to help and make such mistakes and fail so many times and have the woman you love turn away and against you and to turn away and against her. I hope you are ok, I know you are not emotionally, I can feel you. Not just you though, I practice this skill now and feel for other people too, I feel pains mainly though, I feel the pain of people around me, sometimes it is because I seek it and other times it is because they have such intense pain and I am not blocking that it hits me hard. Last night at the Hospital I felt many things from the people there, it was distracting, I know it was not from me, I know I was not the one lensing it.

We went there because the police had hurt me so badly that I could not chew without pain under my jaw, while they were trying to cuff me that night they pushed their thumbs up under my ears as hard as humanly possible three different times/positions, no arrest, no charges were laid, the doctor said I was fine and everything but the RCMP really hurt me, I would have gone with them willingly if they had just asked me politely.. They did not have to hurt me.. why did they hurt me so badly?? Because it was necessary for Mom and you to finally see some of what I have been experiencing, "God", "All", "Everything", "Creation" needed for both of you to be a witniss to at least one incident of the things I have been going through and I am glad for it, I have been all alone in the sufferring thus far of the agression and mistreatment from the law, I am so relieved that finally two of the closest ones to me in life "felt" a little of what I feel. I feel so sad though that all of this is occurring.. I forgive those officers but still know that it is necessary that they pay for the actions. "Arrest" is as simple as requesting one comes with the authority, none of the actions they made were necessary, just as the whole set of events thus far have been just the same..

Just as what I did was unnecessary but at the same time somehow it was justified. A lesson in detachment we might say, and we all have the "scars" to learn from. I feel certain that those in/on me are the deepest though, Creation made me pay for hasty chosen actions.. I knew even as I made the actions that they were not meant exactly as I did them, I was meant to do them differently.. but too late. Somehow it has always been this way for me, people influence me into action or out of it, and oft I move too fast outside because inside I move faster.

Forgive me Anne, forgive me All, forgive me Creation. I beg of All ahhhh!

Before meeting you Anne I wished I could die for years.. I felt like nothing in this world, no direction, no purpose, no placement, no reason to exist besides slavery to concept, I truly wanted to die but knew I could not or would not be allowed.. Even now I wish I could die.. I wish I was allowed.. I wish too that all of humanity would die.. then this planet would be safe again.. but none of this is anything possible, I know I am not going to die soon, Creation has something in store for us, for all of us.. I don't know what the extent is, I only know that choosing to inexist means I do, and I don't want to inexist. Creation would have locked me up or forced death upon me already if it was meant to be.. Creation continues to spare me because Creation has plans.. so I'll go on trying in every direction to do the right things indefinately until either some human kills me or I die naturally..

I do love you, I want you in this life with me close again and I know that nothing like what has happened between us will ever happen again.

Look inside Anne, see those actions by you through all of this relationship, accept how you acted selfish and childish and disrespectful and uncaring. We both contributed to the problems, when we both get over them we will be so much more than we are now. We always succeeded before this to work out all issues because we knew that we are one. We still know we are one.

Namaste, En La'kesh
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Todays "Daily Bread"

The only reason this is being placed here is because I through discernment/been given signs by Creation that oft it is necessary to quote the "words" of Creation to achieve forward motion with those who claim only to follow the "words" of whichever "God" name they utilize, ignoring all words from all other books and faiths throughout as-if "God" the Creator did not create EVERYTHING!! Know that as a Prophet for Creation, Creation laid out everything everywhere, including the "Daily Bread" which relates to today. So here, with some words revised to uncategorize/label Creation from any specific religious translation into a more acceptably scientific perspective and solidify the message:

John 8:42-47 (NLT?)
Jesus (Je Suis/I am) (I am)[a]manuel/Immanuel, Created, told them, "If Creation IS your Creator, you ought to love me because I have come to you from Creation. I do not create me, Creation created me. Why can't you comprehend/understand/learn from what I say? It is because you do not want to hear it! For you are children of Destruction, loving to destroy! Destruction has destroyed and will always destroy and dismiss unity of learnedness! Unity is multiplication, Destruction prefers division! You would rather divide intelligence into lesser numbers! So when I unite the information and discern the truths from within the signs and through practice you naturally attempt to label me Destruction! Which of you can truthfully disclaim thats these claims are not factual? Since I speak only the truth, why do you not believe? Anyone who connects to Creation assimilates the facts and begins to PRACTICE them! Since you don't, it proves you are followers of Destruction."

"Prayer" Spirit of Creation, strengthen our connection so that we may unify and Create something fresh and positive together today!

Have been reading the Holy Qur-an, Creation had the people of the Qur-an keep its meanings intact for a much better interpretation than the "king James and most of the "Holy Bibles" in Cristianity. The footnotes are phenominal and the discussion regarding the Jews and Isrealites etc. shining light on the majority of problems facing those religions these days. Literal discernment of any of these books however is not the means to connect with creation, it is through unity of all earthly languages and concepts that the truths are made obvious and the misleading directions are clarified and returned to the way of good orderly direction.

Is it the path for me to rewrite/amend/amalgamate all bibles on this world with a scientific twist? I feel ready for the task.
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Education...

deixis - the function of pointing or specifying from the perspective of a participant in an act of speech or writing; aspects of a communication whose interpretation depends on knowledge of the context in which the communication occurs..

dejected - Being in low spirits; depressed.

dejerate - To swear solemnly; to take an oath.

de jure - (in Classical Latin de iure) is an expression that means "based on law", as contrasted with de facto, which means "in fact". The terms de jure and de facto are used like "in principle" and "in practice" when one is describing political situations. They are also often used when discussing racial segregation. A practice may exist de facto, where the people obey a contract as though there were a law. A process known as "desuetude" may allow de facto practices to replace obsolete laws. On the other hand, practices may exist de jure and not be obeyed or observed by the people.
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Marriage, Love.. according to the Bible

Beloved, you are still near.. Please come back to mothers, we will dance together again. We welcome you and embrace you and ask for forgiveness in all matters..

Mark 10:2-12 - Only quoting verse 8 here, the infinite.
"AND THE TWO SHALL BECOME ONE FLESH: consequently they are no longer two, but one flesh.

1st John 4:7-8
"Beloved, lets love one another, for love is from God; and every one who loves is born of God and knows God. The one who does not love does not know God, for God is love."

The Song of Soloman 5:1+ (solo man) (leaving out pieces.. for this I reverse the orientation and replace the male with female)

I have come into my garden, my sister, my bride..
I was asleep, but my heart was awake:
Open to me, my sister, my darling,
My dove, my perfect one!
For my head is drenched with dew,
My locks with the damp of the night.

I have taken off my clothes,
How can I put them on again?
I have washed my feet,
How can I dirty them again?...
I had opened to my beloved,
But my beloved had turned away and had gone!
My heart went out to her as she spoke.
I searched for her, but did not find her;
I called her but she did not answer me.
Thw watchmen who make the rounds in the city came,
they struck me and wounded me..
I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem,
If you find my beloved,
As to what you will tell her:
For I am lovesick.

My Dove, my perfect one, is unique;
She is the pure child of the one who bore her.
The maidens saw her and called her blessed,
She grows like the dawn,
as beautiful as the full moon,
as pure as the sun..
The curve of your hips are like jewels,
the works of teh hands of an artist,
your navel is like a round goblet,
which never lacks mixed wine,
your belly is like a heap of wheat,
fenced about with lillies,
your two breasts are like two fawns..
your neck is like a tower of ivory,
your eyes like pools of water in moonlight,
the flowing locks of your hair are like golden wool,
how beautiful you are, how delightful you are,
my love with all your charms,
your stature is like a palm tree,
your mouth like the best wine,
it goes down smoothly for my beloved,
flowing gently through the lips of those who fall asleep,
I am yours my beloved, let us go out into the forest,
let us spend a night in the trees,
I would lead you and bring you into,
the house of my mother, who used ot instruct me,
my left hand under your head,
my right hand embracing you,
put me like a seal over your heart,
for love is as strong as death,
many waters cannot quench love,
nor will rivers overflow it.
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Beloved..

Remember the card we pulled when wondering about how things would go while here.. The priestess on the mount/cliff with those beside her casting a spell into the night with the wolf in the sky howling?

A new interpretation exists in me now. The woman was you and those behind her were your "demons" whatever it is in your past which causes you to go into the "broken record" loop thing you do whenever you do not want to listen to me. I want to know where that comes from, why you do that, how you justify the rage and physical violence.. Did your mother or father physically attack or abuse you during childhood? What is it that has given you the pain that taught you to enter that sort of mind set? Where is it in all the things you write that makes it ok for you to scratch and throw rocks and attack me? This was not the first time you drew blood from my body..

The wolf was most certainly me, crying in pain from the way you ignore me, the way you cut into me with your fingernails, the way the RCMP abused me, the loss of our present and possibly our future.. The Cliff was the gap between us, you on the ground, me in the air, your "beats" is the rage you hold inside, my "spirit" is the thing which keeps me floating higher and higher in enlightenment yet you remain on the ground, unwilling to soar with me..

When will you let go of the demons from your past?
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One Last Gasp

gripped tight in self absorbtion and steadfast
caring only for the future giving all up for love
worried for a loved one hiding below and above
nothing ends without heartache and madness
sorrows call like dieing trees and who listens
bonded with the glue of emotional pain and joy
everything comes easy once the light shines
it all goes away when the darkness shadows
something keeps driving us apart for a time
but we intertwine ever more tightly again
we are one with the rainbow and the music
climbing ever higher but stumbling over egos
fighting to remain stationary while ever moving
seeking the truth, offering cool waterfalls
to every passing traveller, avoiding the drips
dust clouds and earthquakes seperate us often
but the gaps are bridgeable and the dust settles
through the cataclysms we triumph and live
all are one in an infinite openness of acceptance
yet free will continues to close our minds to it
we look away from the light, we stand apart
knowing all the while that ignoring is wrong
connecting is the right path, listening and loving
evolution of the spirit will ever continue unchecked
now we know the experience that divided us
once more we must weather the storms surrounding
our bond is ever invisible to you, you mirror
until we focus on removing our selfishness
we will alwyas have this series of events
facing us again in every relationship
for it is in us to give it all away rather
than run away from it for ourselves
nothing is harder than changing ourselves
when it is for someone other than ourselves
anything is easier than giving our hearts
when we only do it for selfish reasons
all is content to remain the same
stuck in the defined labels which protect us
self definement is a blanket to hide under
walking naked in refinement is fearlessness
giving evertything to those in need is the way
forgetting our own desires for that of our bond
an oath to serve and protect and be merciful
justice for all, justice for all, one for all
heed the call of the all that is one, its begun
all is art, time is the expanse of the art blooming
flowers grow together, they single out in death
sorrow in the blue, growth in the green
life in the sun, sleep under the starlight
day, night, wrong, right, all one, once dirty, clean.