March 25th, 2006

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Expansion.. We Learn..

The above url leads to fascinating and informative information in relation to spirituality. Be openminded.

This regards "Chakras" Anne, pay close attention to what is said about the 4th, in regards to touching, remember the night at Jamers..

Chakras And The Map
To understand the map of the consciousness that the body represents, we can turn to some ancient Hindu traditions which have been studying consciousness for thousands of years, and which use the language of the chakras. Chakra is a Sanskrit word, and it means "wheel," or "vortex," because that's what it looks like when we look at it. Each chakra is like a solid ball of energy interpenetrating the physical body, in the same way that a magnetic field can interpenetrate the physical body. The chakras are not physical. They are aspects of consciousness in the same way that the auras are aspects of consciousness The chakras are more dense than the auras, but not as dense as the physical body, but they interact with the physical body through two major vehicles, the endocrine system and the nervous system. Each of the seven chakras is associated with one of the seven endocrine glands, and also with a particular group of nerves called a plexus. Thus, each chakra can be associated with particular parts of the body and particular functions within the body controlled by that plexus or that endocrine gland associated with that chakra.

Your consciousness, your experience of being, represents everything it is possible for you to experience. All of your senses, all of your perceptions, all of your possible states of awareness, can be divided into seven categories, and each of these categories can be associated with a particular chakra. Thus, the chakras represent not only particular parts of your physical body, but also particular parts of your consciousness. When you feel tension in your consciousness, you feel it in the chakra associated with the part of your consciousness experiencing the stress, and in the parts of the physical body associated with that chakra. Where you feel the stress depends therefore on why you feel the stress. When someone is hurt in a relationship, they feel it in their heart. When someone is nervous, their legs tremble and their bladder becomes weak.

When there is tension in a particular part of your consciousness, and therefore in the chakra associated with that part of your consciousness, the tension is detected by the nerves of the plexus associated with that chakra, and communicated to the parts of the body controlled by that plexus. When the tension continues over a period of time, or reaches a particular degree of intensity, the person creates a symptom on the physical level. Again, the symptom served to communicate to the person through their body what they had been doing to themselves in their consciousness. When the person changes something about their way of being, they are able to release the stress that had been creating the symptom, and they are then able to return to their natural state of balance and health.

Reading The Map
When we are reading the body as a map of the consciousness within, we work with the idea that the tensions in the body represent tensions in the person's consciousness concerning what was happening in the person's life at the time that the symptom developed. The person was feeling stress about something that was happening in their life at that time. We are going to examine the map of consciousness that the chakras provide, in order to understand the language of the symptoms that are associated with each chakra. In order to complete this map, however, we also need to look at ourselves as each a polarity of yin and yang, feminine and masculine characteristics.

For most people, their right side is their yang side, their will side, their acting or active side, and the left side is their yin side, their female side, their feeling or adaptive side. For people who were born left-handed, this polarity is reversed. Thus, for a right-handed person, their right leg can be described as their will leg, or their male leg, or the foundation of their will, but for a left-handed person, their left leg would be their male leg or will leg, and so on. Thus, we can talk about the will arm, or the will eye, or the will nostril, etc., and which side it is on will depend upon whether the person is right-handed or left-handed at birth. Each of the chakras is energy vibrating at a certain frequency, in a logical and orderly sequence of seven vibrations. As we move up the scale, the elements become more and more subtle, moving through the five physical elements of earth, water, fire, air, and ether, to the spiritual elements of inner sound and inner light.

The heaviest element is on the bottom, the lightest on the top. It is a logical and orderly sequence. The colors of the spectrum also represent a series of seven vibrations in a logical and orderly sequence, as do the notes of the musical scale. Thus, we can put the heaviest vibrations or the longest wavelength on the bottom and the lightest on the top, and a particular color can be used to represent a chakra in its clear state, as can a particular musical note. Music played in a certain key vibrates a particular chakra, and we feel a particular way when we hear that music. Our relationship with a certain color says something about our relationship with the part of our consciousness that the color represents.

The First Chakra
The Root Chakra is associated with the parts of our consciousness concerned with security, survival, or trust. For most people, this concerns the parts of their consciousness concerned with money, home, and job. When this chakra is in its clear state, the person is able to feel secure, be present in the here and now, and be grounded. When there is tension in this chakra, it is experienced as insecurity or fear. When there is more tension, it is experienced as a threat to survival. Parts of the body controlled by the sacral plexus and this chakra include the skeleton system, the legs, and the elimination system. Symptoms in these parts of the body represent, therefore, tensions at the level of the Root Chakra, and we therefore know that the person is seeing the world through a perceptual filter of insecurity or fear. The adrenal glands are also associated with this chakra.

If one leg is affected, we can see whether it is the male leg or the female leg, and thus whether it has something to do with trust in a male or trust in a female. We can also see it as having something to do with trust in the will, or the aspects of trust in the foundations the emotional being, related to what was happening in the person's life at the time the symptom eveloped. The physical sense of smell, and therefore the organ of the sense of smell, the nose, is associated with the Root Chakra. Symptoms at the level of the nose or affecting the sense of smell reflect tensions at the level of the Root Chakra. Each chakra is associated with an element. The Root Chakra is associated with the element of earth, and reflects something about the person's association with the earth, or how they feel about being on the earth, which we call Mother Earth.

This chakra is also associated with our relationship with our mother. When someone experiences a sense of separation from their mother, or not feeling loved by their mother, they cut off their roots and experience symptoms of tensions at the level of the Root Chakra until they can again open to accept their mother's love. When a child comes into the world in the traditional family structure, the mother provides the nourishment and the father provides the direction. Thus, in the child's relationship with its mother, it makes certain decisions about the way things are. The relationship with the mother thus becomes a model for the person's relationship with everything that represents security - money, home, and job. The Root Chakra is associated with the color red.

The Second Chakra
The Abdominal Chakra is associated with the parts of our consciousness concerned with food and sex - the communication from the body to the person within it, about what the body wants or needs, and what it finds pleasurable. It also is related to what is happening in their consciousness about having children. When this chakra is in its clear state, the person is in touch with this communication, and listening to and responding appropriately to what the body wants and needs. Parts of the body controlled by the lumbar plexus include the reproductive system and the abdomen, and the lumbar region of the back. The sense of taste is associated with this chakra, as is the element of water. When someone does not have a clear relationship with water (swimming, for example, or being on a boat), this reflects their attitudes about the parts of their consciousness that this chakra represents.
Tensions on the will side or the emotional side of this chakra indicate tensions in the person's consciousness as conflicts between either the will or the emotions with what the person's body is asking for. This chakra is associated with the sense of taste, and with appetite. It is also involved with the person's willingness to feel their emotions. The second chakra is associated with the color orange.

The Third Chakra
The Solar Plexus Chakra is associated with the parts of our consciousness having to do with perceptions of power, control, or freedom. In its clear state, it represents ease of being, and comfort with what is real for one's self - being comfortable with who you are. Parts of the body associated with this chakra include the organs closest to the solar plexus - stomach, gall bladder, spleen, liver, etc. - as well as the skin as a system, the muscular system as a system, and the face in general. The physical sense associated with this chakra is the sense of sight. Anyone with impaired eyesight experiences tension at the level of their solar plexus chakra about the issues of power, control, or freedom. Nearsighted people also experience tensions at the level of the Root Chakra, and experience the world through a perceptual filter of fear or insecurity.

Those who are farsighted experience tension also at the level of the throat chakra, and see the world through a perceptual filter of anger or guilt. Astigmatics see through the emotional perceptual filter of confusion. The endocrine gland associated with the Solar Plexus Chakra is the pancreas. We can say that diabetics are keeping sweetness from themselves. When someone gets too close with sweetness, they feel threatened in their power to be who they are, and an emotion comes up to create a safe distance again. The emotion is anger. Diabetes is associated with suppressed anger. The element associated with this chakra is fire, and the person's relationship with the sun says something about their relationship with the parts of their consciousness associated with the Solar Plexus Chakra. The color of the Solar Plexus Chakra is yellow.

The Fourth Chakra
The Heart Chakra is associated with the parts of the consciousness concerned with relationships and our perceptions of love. The relationships we speak of here are with those people closest to our heart - partners, parents, siblings, children. The parts of the body associated with this chakra include the heart and lungs, and the blood circulatory system as a system. This chakra is also associated with the thymus gland, which controls the immune system. When this is affected, as with AIDS, the person's lifestyle separates them from someone they love. The physical sense associated with this chakra is the sense of touch, in its aspect of relating to the person inside the body.

For example, a massage given to someone with no sensitivity to what the person is feeling inside would be an example of the sensation we associate with the Abdominal Chakra, but when the masseur seems to have a sense of what the person inside the body is experiencing, then it includes the aspect of relating we associate with the Heart Chakra. When someone experiences extreme sensitivity about being touched, we would ask what was happening at the level of the Heart Chakra. This chakra is associated with the element of air. When someone has difficulty with air, with breathing (asthma, emphysema, tuberculosis, etc.), we say that their relationship with air reflects their relationship with love - difficulty letting it in, or letting it out, for example The color associated with the Heart Chakra is emerald green.

The Fifth Chakra
The Throat Chakra is associated with the parts of the consciousness concerned with expressing and receiving. Expressing can be in the form of communicating what one wants and what one feels, or it can be artistic expression, as an artist painting, a dancer dancing, a musician playing music, using a form for expressing and bringing to the outside what was within. Expression is related to receiving, as, "Ask, and ye shall receive."
The throat chakra is associated with abundance, and with the state of consciousness called, "grace," where it seems that what you want for you is also what God wants for you. Accepting what the abundant universe offers you requires a sense of unconditionally receiving.

This chakra is also associated with listening to one's intuition, and flowing in a particular way where it seems that the Universe supports you in all that you do. It is the first level of consciousness from which one perceives another level of intelligence functioning, and one's interaction with this other level of intelligence. Parts of the body associated with this chakra include the throat, shoulders, and arms and hands. and the thyroid gland. The sense of hearing is associated with this chakra, and the element of ether, the most subtle physical element, corresponding to what we find in deep space. The ether is the crossover between the physical and the spiritual dimensions. Someone looking at the world through this chakra watches the manifestation of their goals. The Will Arm represents manifesting what you want, and the Feeling Arm represents manifesting what makes you happy. Hopefully, the two point to the same thing. Sky Blue is the color associated with this chakra.

The Sixth Chakra
The Brow Chakra is associated with the parts of the consciousness concerned with the spiritual view, and the home of the Spirit, the Being within. This level of consciousness is associated with what western traditions call the unconscious or subconscious, the part of our consciousness that directs our actions and our life. From this level we are aware of the motivations behind our actions. We can watch our outer theater from an inner point of view.
This chakra is associated with the carotid plexus, and the nerves on each side of the face, and the pituitary gland. Headaches in the temples or center of the forehead are associated with tensions at this level. This chakra controls the entire endocrine system as a system, and the process of growth. The Brow chakra, also known as the Third Eye, is associated with extra sensory perception (ESP), the set of all inner senses that correspond to the outer senses, which together comprise spirit-to-spirit communication. The element associated with this chakra is a vibration known as the Inner Sound, the sound that one hears in their ears that does not depend upon something in the physical world. Some consider it a pathological condition. In some of the eastern traditions the ability to hear this is considered a necessary prerequisite to further spiritual growth. The color associated with this chakra is Indigo, midnight blue, the color of lapis lazuli, or the color of the night sky during a full moon.

The Seventh Chakra
The Crown Chakra is associated with the parts of the consciousness concerned with unity or separation, and just as the Root Chakra showed our connection with Mother Earth, this chakra shows our connection with Our Father, Which Art in Heaven. At first, it is associated with our connection with our biological father. This becomes the model for our relationship with authority, and this becomes the model for our relationship with God. When there is a sense of separation from our biological father, the person closes this chakra, and the effect on the consciousness is a sense of isolation and aloneness, being in a shell, and difficult to make contact with those outside the shell. The person feels as if they are hiding from God, or hiding from themselves, not seeing what is true for them in the deepest part of their consciousness, the part we call the soul. This chakra is also associated with a sense of direction. The parts of the body controlled by this chakra are the pineal gland, the brain, and the entire nervous system as a system. The color associated with the Crown Chakra is Violet, the color of amethyst.

Using The Map
When there is tension in a particular part of the body, this represents a tension in a particular part of the consciousness, about a particular part of the person's life. Being aware of these associations helps one to see the importance of resolving the tense issues in their life. If it were only a question of doing what is necessary for the person to be happy, that would be reason enough to motivate the person to want to change something that doesn't work for them, but here, we see that it is also a matter of health. The issues that are unresolved in a person's life are, in fact, hazardous to their health. When we see the correspondences between the consciousness and the body, we see the degree to which we each create our reality. In fact, those words begin to take on a new meaning. We see how everything begins in our consciousness and we are able to look around us at other aspects of our lives in the same way. When we see how the body carries out the messages and deepest wishes of the Being within the body, we can realize that the process can go in more than one direction. If our consciousness is directing how we develop symptoms, it can also direct how we release these same symptoms. If our onsciousness can make our body ill, our consciousness can make our body well. The logical conclusion of this process is that anything can be healed.

Copyright 1987 Martin Brofman
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Ah Ha!

The internet is a marvelous thing.. Here is another page from the site below.. Continually I have tried to teach things like this to people along the way.. time to listen people, We know this stuff is truth, why is it I must be backed up by others before you believe? This is only the beginning, the things I say have been truth always in the best form I could offer at the time. I am perfecting me, in the past I have not been perfect, but learnedness is growth and evolution doesent happen all at once! Give me a change, how many changes can I enact within me without reading and intaking reams of info and then practicing around people who actually ACCEPT things and accept ME? Stop trying to untrain me from positivism!

"Every sound we utter sends out an energy wave that aids in creating our world. With every sentence we speak we are improving or destroying our health, relationships, finances, etc.

How Many Words Do We Use That Destroy Our Desires?

NEVER NEVER NEVER say "I'm Sorry." Two of the most powerful words in the English language are the words I AM. These words tell every part of you - your personality, your subconscious, your ego, your spirit - who you are. They define WHO YOU ARE. Be very careful what you place behind those words. When you say "I'm sorry," you are saying that WHO YOU ARE is a sorry individual. Replace the words "I'm sorry" with "I apologize." Anyone who eliminates the words "I'm sorry" from their vocabulary will increase their self esteem almost immediately! The same goes for "I'm sick." "I'm tired." "I'm stupid." - you get the idea. Replace those with "I feel ___" and eliminate the stupid comment altogether.

Another very important aspect of conscious language is the LAW OF FOCUS. Whatever we place our attention on is what we create. It's important to focus on the positive thing we desire rather than the negative thing we want to avoid. For example, never focus on NOT AGING. Focusing on not aging ensures that you will age and quickly. Instead focus on being healthy, vibrant, and youthful.

An interesting and often overlooked part of all this is the need to avoid words that are negating a negative. What the heck do I mean by that? A word like LIMITLESS is actually drawing the subconscious mind to focus on LIMITS. This is NOT what we want. So saying something like LIMITLESS ABUNDANCE is placing limits on the abundance."

Copyright 2003 (c) Spirit of Nature
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Know this..

All of the time spent living in Montreal.. all of the time in the rave scene.. and the only ones who ever had a problem with me were the staff of Gravity After Hours.. and maybe a couple individuals, but not many.

After capping over (700ish photos) of the "good time" it's a wonder that all these recent people have treated me with such negativity.. I connected with so many people in positive ways, so many friends have been wondering what has happened to me, why I have "dissapeared" and they all hope I will return to Montreal and rejoin the scene.

Half brother Che was the last person I worked for, I built his website - Bon Train, was supposed to be paid a fair price for the work but was abandoned and left paid only a small portion.. The man who built his original unprofessional(work alike to that of a 5 year old) website which was tossed out, was paid WAY too much(the remaining 500 which was promised to me) and did not deserve it at all. Che would not even buy a bus ticket for the SGI(the computer I have used for 5 years) to be sent to my mothers in Truro.. It sits in storage at Vulas still.

So it appears as if it may be necessary for me to return to Montreal after all, Creation has placed some influential people there in the field of Aspergers research. I continue to absorb information on this subject as well, on spirituality and the environment and more..

I do not fit the profile of the Aspergers human to a tee.. Lets describe me some..

1. Great balance, co-ordination and motor skills. Well above average.
2. No photographic or photogenic memory, better at remembering faces and feelings than names or codes/passwords/numbers but some are never forgotten.
3. Generous, giving, empathetic, caring, loving, concerned for others.
4. Very fast moving, fast walker, talker, thinker, learner etc. People constantly tell me to slow down, I ask them to speed up.
5. Obsessed with current interests, the environment, love, healing, art, dance, education, self improvement, helping others, honesty, law. Constantly have to tell people whats going on.
6. Always do things DIFFERENTLY. varied routes, paths, actions, never the same way twice if I can find another way. More methods = better.
7. Good chess player, apply chess thinking to everyday events, preplan to avoid discomfort (bring spare socks to raves, extra shirt as a towel etc.)
8. Open to spur of the moment changes in events, used to redirection
9. Impatient, demand of others they "keep up" or be efficient. Detest inefficiency, why is everyone doing things so slow? Why are people not willing to fix problems? Why do doctors continually avoid doing a good job? Why is everyone constantly forgetting to do what they say they'll do.. or avoiding responsibility? I feel like I am the only one I know who is always seeking to fix EVERYTHING.
10. Semantic, say things in two/three different orders/ways to be certain people understand. Used to being misunderstood/unfollowable. People are constantly asking me to stop it, and dismissing what I say as semantics.. I know the law is based on semantics though.. why is humanity unconcerned with speaking semantically?
11. Eat twice and thrice the average person, remained 138 pounds most of my life, continually reaffirmed to self that I could gain NO weight and thus did not. In the last three months, after going homeless I began to test that belief and state I "am gaining weight" and thus have gained ten pounds and didn't have to pay for it.
12. No allergies or medications(except marijauna) entire life, I almost never get sick. Pot changes multi-branch thinking patterns and smooths out communication. I'm not PRESCRIBED POT and I know it's not allowed, but since everyone else breaks the law for bad reasons.. I feel justified in breaking the law for good reasons.
13. Capable of motor skill use/typing, talking, listening to music, sensing everything around me, contemplating things and more concurrently. Have well above average motor skills, both hand eye and foot eye.
14. Often avoid eye contact in conversations due to the knowledge that most people misinterpret the facial expression I use. Better at working/cleaning/washing dishes etc. while conversing. Capable of conversing AND intaking a lot of extraneous information at the same time, often people think I was not listening because I look around a lot but in fact I listen more intently when focused on things other than the speaker.
15. Extremely and obsessivelyorganized in arranging thing but prefer to change the positions of things constantly, rearranging rooms often and trying to find moreefficient/comfortable positioning of everything, ease of use/access etc. Apply this to physical things and data. Categorize and group obsessively. All alike things go together, books are ordered from big to small etc.
16. Dirt doesent bother me all the time but when i focus on cleaning I obsessively do the best possible job, multitasking and leaving one portionof the cleanup to tackle another, completing more areas than the original focus job.
17. Constant concern with concurrent completion of any/every thing possible. Ray Clark implanted that seed into me, always pick up things on the way if you have a free hand, always complete the quick things imediately if they are en-route to another task, the otehr task can wait, more things done=better.
18. Hold very little to no interest in "small talk" if it has no educational value. Do not any longer watch TV, movies are rare now.
19. Have read probably over a thousand books, over three thousand movies.. watched all episodes of every star trek, babylon 5, and hundreds of other tv series.. done with tv, tv disgusts me these days.
20. See symbology as everything, numbers, shapes, object layouts, wind motion, sounds, songs (as you hear them) and everything in every direction as being "good orderly direction" from "God"
21. Know that because the "atom" is alive, then everything is alive and connected electrically this communicating and "Everything" is the cumulative concept of "God"
22. Treated unfairly and unjustly by many many people, has been this way ever since childhood. Been bullied, beat up, discriminated against, denied access to services, fired from most jobs (after eliciting more skills than we required, they wanted a dumber person who would shut up and not learn more than they wanted me to learn) Ignored in terms of beneficial offered information, people tend not to WANT to learn from me.
23. Understand emotions VERY well, know I control the flow/choice of them, have refrained from exibiting them for years, always remained within the spectrum of cautious indifference, both elevated/excited and not. Tended to only go the way of sadness, depression, agitation etc. This is due to the difficulty of existing as a slave and the inability to be "liked" or shown true friendship by most of the world.
24. Had been completely incapable of crying for years, since childhood. Did not feel as if anything was worth crying for, even when very sad, lonely, depressed and TRYING to elicit tears I was incapable because I wanted them to come for me. Recently I overcame this and have been able to express feelings in all directions, crying for others, for injustice and things but not for me.
25. Able to "feel" others pain, huge identify/emapthize with observe pain, I "feel" what I see, when on a movie or show I see a leg get broken I somehow transfer the experience of it into me and "feel" it too. Am aware of emotional and auric energies around me, do not "see" them with sight but with sensation. Can distinguish the difference between the "feeling" of those I have a strong connection to and those who are just "pushing in" through my "shield" and the surrounding environment such as plantlife, the earth, etc.
26. I can read from books aloud VERY VERY fast, I developed this skill way bac in elementary school.
27. I recognize patterns in lights and sounds and everything without even seeking them. I memorize the state of my surroundings and immediately take note of new additions revisions.
28. I cannot help but be constantly looking at everything, reading signs, shapes, people..
29. I connect to music like nooone I have ever known, melodies, harmonies, sounds realy move me and create lots of sensations both inside me and out.
30. Strobe lights bother me in cyclic patterns.
31. Often experience hyper-sense sensitivity, mainly related to touch and hearing. Things grow very intense and push into my emotional state as a sort of irritability. Mainly when alone.

I look in many directions for tests to "diagnose" me with some silly label of a disorder but know that there is no test out there capable of properly diagnosing me, there are no properly comprehendable "syndromes" anyway. Aspergers is a discrimination. Autism is a discrimination. Every human is unique like fingerprints. Society is forcing people to be all the same, if you do not fit into the "group" determination that you MUST be like they are, then they mistreat you, call you names, slander/libel you, accuse you of having problems etc. They have been trained to believe that everyone has to be like the people on tv, that lieing for friends and allowing friends to get away with breaking the law is the norm and thus when you are honest and try to not allow people around you to deny you human rights or to break the law, they hate you and ask others to agree with them, then you are pushed out or away by overwhelming numbers and society denies you are even human.

This world is in such distress, the people are all doing things backwards, taking, destroying, killing, mutilating, hurting, living sad, angry or afraid lives, pushing their emotional states into the negative spectrum and shaping their faces over the duration of their lives into the worst shapes, aging themselves through negative thoughts, actions and statements, beleiveing that the worst traits in people are the ones society wants and that the good, smart, caring people who give of themselves selflessly are the ones who deserve punishment..

Am I from the wrong planet? I have had no respect for this society for years. I could place no faith in singular views of "God" because the churches were filled with such hate and fears and noone ever did what the books said were possible or guided them to do.. No faith in the law because I had been mistreated by it so many times.. No faith in the government, they are allowed to slander and libel, they destroy the world and they only care about money, blame, marketing and the worst of things. They always made things overcomplicated and achieved so little and never evaluated things properly in order to fix them!

I can go on in so many directions with the reasons I would rather die or live in the woods than in this society but I am also surrounded by good people, people who want change but don't have the intelligence people like me are gifted with, they ought to grow the balls, the nerve, the gall to give up possessions and security and fight for what is right, they never amalgamated enough information to see how simple the solutions really are for this world.. They don't believe we CAN change, they reinforce negative futures and ask us to agree with them.. DO NOT AGREE!!! We CAN change, we CAN grow, we CAN learn and we DID learn. Will we come together and CHANGE NOW??
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Brniging back old posts..

My old blogs..

A post from December..

There is absolutely no doubt about it. I have found the love of my life, the most wonderful and magnificently compatible human on the planet for me, someone to share the rest of my travels with, my life, my love, my soul mate. I'm transitioning into a whole new me, someone who you probably won't recognize when you see him, my face is changing, my attitudes are rearranging, my focus and determinations are redirecting and life is more than just good, it's wonderful, it's flowers and butterflies and heart shaped hunab ku's. En La'kesh everyone! I love the world! I love the world inside me! I love the world inside you! I want to run around and tell everyone I know how much I love the mate I've found, we're bonded now, we've recognized each other for who we really are and we've made commitments with our hearts and our paths have been made clear to us. We're going to change this world, we're going to make it clear to all of you what it is you're missing. We're going to open the eyes of all the sleepers and create a world of dreamers again, a place of magic and love where anything is possible and everyone understands that's we've got to slow down and enjoy ourselves.

I want to tell you about the human I've dedicated my life to. She is tall and beautiful as a deer in moonlight, dancing barefoot in the windy summer evening starlight to trance, she moves like no one you know, she is free enough to do so, she's alive and loving living. She's creative and passionate about her art and the sharing of it. She wants nothing more than to live with family and friends creating together and living the company of each other, common purpose, common love and fun. She's amazing and sensational, she's so smart and wise in matters of the heart and soul. She knows what is right and wrong at deeper levels than most of us, she continues to shape my reality into something I can better live with in myself. She's making it more clear to me every day what my role here is and I'm so thankful to the circumstances in reality which brought us together I want to trace back every action to its human precursor and thank them personally for helping us meet! She is prepared for parenthood, she's prepared for motherhood, she's prepared for the role of teacher and mentor and friend. She's got strength that you may never notice until the moment is right and then you'd better watch out, she is fearless and she is tough and she has my back like I have hers.

She listens to me, she is interested in what I say and what I know and how I do. She loves me for me and her love is the strongest I have ever felt from this world. She loves me like the entire world, like I am the entire world. She loves everyone on Gia through me. I see. I must do the same. I shall never lose this love now that I have found it, there can be nothing to me more important than the flower which has grown in our garden. You cannot stand between us, you cannot separate us. We are connected through the universal consciousness and I feel it, I feel her, even with my eyes closed and great distance separating us. I hurt when she is not around, hurt inside, with a great feeling of remorseful joy at the elation of her existence and our tie. It's an odd sensation to feel both happiness and great sadness together, it's the most wonderful way to align emotions I think. I love you Anne.

And the last party which Anne and I helped out with:

Secret Society

Quite an intense weekend, I stayed up from Friday morning until Sunday afternoon, did two all night parties, undecorated my room, helped deco one of the parties, redeco'd my room and edited a whole stack of photos from the Secret Society Rave. That was fun! Lets do something like it with a few less hours again next week! lol maybe... I need more materials for deco!!

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Another old "self analytical" post..

Gregory, your Life Path of 6 ...

You have a deep love and concern for your fellow humans and are at your happiest when you feel yourself to be in the service of others. You are a supportive and self-sacrificing and a friend to all. You intuitively know how to cheer or heal others who are in a crisis. You also have a swift, analytical mind, dexterity and a lot more faith and courage than is often demonstrated by the other numbers. For this reason, many of you end up being doctors, nurses, fire-fighters, policeman, politicians, lawyers, crisis line workers, counselors and any occupation that involves empathy, skill or bravery.

Your life path is often filled with responsibility, but the difference between you and other people is that you are happy to take it on. You are a sympathetic and kind person and skilled in the arts of diplomacy and leadership. Many of you are born with an innate wisdom about what others need to survive and thrive. You easily earn the devotion and respect of others and are destined to become a pillar of your community.

Like most sixes, you probably were some kind of child prodigy in one subject area. You probably seemed to be wise beyond your years and may have accelerated grades or entered university early. Furthering your education is likely to be a theme that is important to you your entire life. This is because your brilliant mind is always looking for ways to enhance the quality of your life.

Another mark of the number 6 child is that he or she tends to connect very well with adults and have full, intelligent conversations even at a very young age.

You often marry early and the cornerstones of your life are family, religion, philanthropy and compassion. Your relationship with your partner is often destined to be a permanent loving one that survives all obstacles. You may also have an extraordinary talent for dealing with children, teens and the elderly.

You have very few flaws, but one of them might be a tendency to meddle in or fix other people's lives. Also your willingness to excel to please high-ups may look like brown nosing to others. As you are often very successful compared to others, you might also experience a lot of jealousy and envy from those who just don't see how good-hearted you really are.

As you are so self-sacrificing you are also in danger of working yourself to the point of exhaustion. One of your life path lessons is to remember to care for yourself as much as you care for others.

Another one of your life challenges is to make sure that you don't take on more than you can chew as this might force you to break promises that you would rather keep. You are a soft touch, so you are also at the risk of being taking advantage by individuals who might see your kindness as the mark of a fool. However your traditional approach to life along with it's ethics and moral values usually serves you well.

Being one of the most domestic numbers, your family and extended family is probably the center of your life. You are very realistic in your approach to money and career and often have the intelligence and foresight to build a small fortune. This financial savvy is good because number six's tend to have large broods or spend many years of their life supporting parents or other relatives.
the-gi het-gi gi-het(heat) get-hi hit-eg

This is hurting so much..

I never hurt like this for me.. I have gone through all of these things.. been destroyed and none of it hurt like this.. I love you Anne... please please please don't say goodbye! We ARE ONE!!
the-gi het-gi gi-het(heat) get-hi hit-eg

Where is the unity..

I remember the parable of the stick and the bundle of sticks. By itself, one stick can be broken easily, but together a bundle of stick is very difficult to break. No wonder I have had no success in the past few months. Noone has been willing to stand with me in these actions. 1st Law. Freedom of Conscience and Religion. The single law capable of changing the entire world. How is it possible that humanity doesen't get it?

(a) freedom of conscience and religion;
Court quote: "Freedom means that, subject to such limitations as are necessary to protect public safety, order(Offences against Public Order), health, or morals or the fundamental rights and freedoms of others, no one is to be forced to act in a way contrary to his [or her] beliefs of his [or her] conscience" – Chief Justice Dickson, R. v. Big M Drug Mart [1985] 1 S.C.R. 295 Freedom of conscience and religion is the right to hold and practise religious, secular, or other beliefs as long as they do not threaten the safety or well being of others. Since Canada has long been home to individuals and groups who have been persecuted for reasons of religious or political intolerance, this is a very basic freedom to have. This right places a restriction on the government: it must not make laws or implement policies that favour one set of religious beliefs over another. In other words, governments must remain neutral on matters of religion. In this way, governments respect the views of all.
(b) freedom of thought, belief, opinion and expression, including freedom of the press and other media of communication;
(c) freedom of peaceful assembly; and
(d) freedom of association

SO... doesen't anyone see how this can change the world?

By the way.. considering all the defamation concerning me.. see this url

"Can I Be Sued for Something I Put on the Internet? Yes. The laws regarding defamation apply to Internet as they do to more traditional media. However, federal law protects Internet service providers (ISPs) and other interactive computer services from many lawsuits."

Now who will fight for me? The law is on my side!