May 16th, 2006

the-gi het-gi gi-het(heat) get-hi hit-eg

Quests and Journeys

I slipped, stepped off the trail, left the unbeaten path and got redirected back to the known and accepted for a woman. I knew who I was, knew what I had to do and where I had to go.. I was weak, I let me heart run my decisions, my love lust. Never had such a love before, such a wonderful woman, such dreams.. but they were fragmented, they were only half the dreams of me and half the dreams of her and they didn't mesh because we were unwilling in many ways to truly listen between the lines to each other and give ourselves to the union of our spirit.. We are many, we are one, we are every, we are none. Time for a return to innocence.

(spectral)11 Muluk - (lunar)2 Zip - First Lord of the Night
Whats this now.. water/jade/thunder, cloud/serpent

spectral water could be steam.. fog.. mist.. clouded judgement, jade is difficult to see through and hard to find, precious and green like the earth, ornamental, materialistic, valuable yet of a value only to someone who places values on objects, thunder is energy at its most chaotic, two spectral water clouds smashing into each other creating a huge static clap of collision. The serpent and cloud are about snaking through the fog of illusion to seek what is mistakenly observed as the truth of things when in "truth" there is no truth, only agreement in a world lacking the determination to be agreeable.

Test results from a Maya Aztek Astrology report..

Here are your strongest and most obvious personality traits. The delineation below describes who you are and how you appear to others, at least on the surface. In Aztec astrology this part of is your horoscope is your Tonalli, or Day-Sign, the form bestowed upon you by the Sun.
Flower: You are a person motivated by your ideals. You have a beautiful vision of what life, and most importantly life with another, can be. In many cases, your obsession with the future and perfection leads to illusions, unrealistic expectations and, ultimately, disappointments. In your effort to create a more perfect world, you try to be as "nice" as possible to others.

The world of art and beauty holds your interest. You could be a successful artist, or more usually, craftsperson -- a producer of decorative or aesthetically pleasing products. You may have a particular liking for jewelry. While you appreciate man-made things, you also appreciate the perfection of nature. The more intellectual Flower personalities will be interested in the beauty of numbers or ideas.

Relationships, particularly close, intimate relationships, are your greatest challenge. You must be with others -- at least that is what you think you must do. But your motivations are complex. In many cases, you may be using others to meet your security needs, yet you may be unaware of this. Relationships can become so fraught with problems that you find it easier to stay home and dream, a temporary, though deeply unsatisfying solution to your relationship dilemma.

A major stumbling block in relationships is your unwillingness to compromise your ideals. You can be a very stubborn person who would rather die then accept a less-than-perfect situation. You will devote yourself to another with unbelievable intensity -- and hold on for years after the relationship has ended. Such fanaticism leads to an unbalanced life, exactly what you fear the most. You should strive to become more well-rounded and flexible.

Over the course of your life you will realize, to some extent, your dreams and ideals. Your devotion and dedication to another, or even to a cause or crusade, is considerable and can effect changes in the world around you. You are a person who takes on the responsibilities and work involved in such projects, and you are rewarded accordingly. Ultimately you are a person who needs to combine realism and idealism, and when this is done, the doors will open to a more perfect world.