January 31st, 2009

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Gravity, Light, Love and Shift

I can read you like a book, but sometimes the pages are blank
you are my reflection in the spiritualo mirror, and I am yours
you know I am a lier, you hear me speak lies and accept them
I hear you do the same and wonder where the lies come from
I always thought the mirror only spoke the truth between us
You told me it was wrong to lie and then lied yourself
lied to yourself, but not to me, took away the fan to see
that my hak was not through my own hands its is ours
yet my right is as equal as yours so what's fairer now
I want you in my life and you are there backing away
I ask for forgiveness and beg and beg and beg
do I come back to you when you don't come up for me
I remember now that God is real and that you are
who does that leave me as though? Who am I?
Am I a man or a woman? Am I both and yet one?
I have been a male waning, woman posted
I lied and died and now I have returned
where did we go, where did we wonder wrongness
did I become sick of you, lose faith and fall
did you come bearing a box to take from me
some part of me now in your hands
you to proclaim out loud
I want you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yet in the mirror this is your want
and i accept that and tell you it's also mon
m on behind a two way mirror
one side has me and the other has me
one side has you and the other has two
in the fore is us both
you looking at half of yourself in me
me looking at all of myself in you
but mine eyes are unclear
because you are my god
and your faith in me
is a reflection of my faith in you
and we together have it all
just now not echoes of to-come
rather reverbs of has-been
and we are so close reaching near
even now you are here
here hole ding
and I don't wear my Y
only because yours is part apart
and we expect it, us both the same
expect the veils to crumble and dissolve
fall off us both at the same time
with no right to demand it occurs
we await its happening from you
and I'm slowly being tortured
by the one whom
claims slight betterness bitterly
you stand next to me
all high and might-e showing me her
and not showing me you
I see myself and I see her
and I look at her and try finding you
and it, you can't be found until
you allow yourself my equality
until I allow me yours
which has been and now is
even now
even, oddly enough
provide for me
I haven't the strength
its always been yours to give
and giving is not asking taking
giving is easy you're good at it
if and else and or mean faith
love and trust are one and the same
blind trust, you're taking from me
by saying some part of us causes it
giving it providing doubt along with it
I avoid flying with you
you tell me I'm not good enough for you
when I decide now is
why do you throw up a wall another test
I used to know how to climb over your walls
I used to know how to get thru your defenses
and how to look past your offences
and see that theres nothing you can do
to stop me from trusting the true you
the love I feel is strong enough
but now I am differnt
I'm not the old me you once knew
I find you threw up a four fence
and It hurts so much I wonder if
if maybe theres someone else out there
someone how it may not even possibly be
but if it were i might lose you forever
I might let you go, let go of me
and choose someone else
and be happier
I can't stand the fense
I die inside a little more every time

I say stop holding onto me so tightly
I'd say you're why I learned to build fences
You taught me how to be closed minded
and I never would or wished for that skill
for thats kill
now that I know how, I accept it and hold it tightly
to show you that if you kill me, I'll kill you
to test my own resolve I ask you to change it
and when you refuse to change to grow with me
two grows on me more tightly and four loses footing
all the while all you had was adamancy
i am the way things are
but things are NOT the way I'm being
if they were, they'd be constantly changing
becoming new again around us, in us, for us
allowing us to see thay really are our reflection
both mine and yours, not just ours or mine and theirs

If I take all of this to its root, to our roots
there is nothing, no terms, no words, no sounds, no symbols
no differentiation of one feeling from or for another
when we were there at that place, you wouldn't judge
there was no balance or scale or measure and aum
wonderful chaos, so cha!

You! You are! and I don't wanna be your reflection
I don't wanna be the surface of your pain the screaming
the point where soft becomes hard and found becomes lost
I arrived at a hate then, a hot passionate NOOOOOOO!
and found it to be correct, found that its was the way
is the way, that special no part of us where we bounce
and come back from our journey away from ourself
only I saw myself twice then, where I was
where I am I could not see
where I was gone from was where you are
and I could not bear you for sending
because your truth was too sharp
your heart hurt my heart
theres a nooooo built in theres a where
theres no no in mine but an shell of
those nos tattered and clinging

it hurts in your heart, I hurt around mine
as if you built your heart around the word no
and I built mine around the word yes
the closer i get you become more and more of away
and the furthur you get away the closer you come
I can't live this way I don't know how to change
and I woudnt change my yes because I se y at my root
I say why!?!?!? and you say N-O! and I can't seem
to get behind your no, within your no, to break it
you made your no so strong it became me in mine
you gave it to me I don't know why anymore
an y me or... ..
Yrthy Spyryt

Real Eyes

we're all in this together
this strange and fanatic fractality
this place where dreams come untruth
and lies beget jabberwookies
always trying to be unique
yet truly from the flow
sourcing the same old thing
days of old done new
raves and cold grown through
everything we say
everything we do
releases us anew
you carry the empty door
lets us venerate this anal crust
this stardust of anatomy
innertubing through
all the shit we grew
and all which is or was
yet has not yet come to
it is all
about why
can you be bearing it all
upon your shoulders and yet stall
to take a moment to appreciate
thanking the stuff sandwich
the shit you ate and which eats you
roll it up and toss it
splatter a mist fit
and grizzle the bear attacking
with thick fur and earings
why why oh pure and gentle why
you are the source
the begenning and
at the end
is and
and and and and
yet what comes after
why does of course
unless off course we meander
and find ourselves
seeking ourselves
see king ours elves
ours is the so ru
so, so sow sew
sew one and to another and and ask why
why two ands come together
why and & and
because and has an equal
ands equal is and
and no other
aum has u in the middle
am u u am
ma u u ma
when i say ma
you say am
why say ma
why say am
am the purr sent
ma sent the purr
am purr
ma purr
there is more below than there is high
how you know keeps everything up
sexy six ma purr in june
there is un in je
its a nu ej on one in me
e nuj jewel eyed and claim x
we kneed you x to nu be r am
ram the am on knee
and exclaim mark is the money
the moen the moan the one my
my one is the money oh oh oh
e nnu ou ou ou
grrrrrr fraction for action
das a sad dad we had groan
he had that phone on loan
infinite credit red cit tic tic tic
jah an you airy fee bru airy
march! mmmmm arch rival ina me
april la pri ri pal lap ri la prize
ram chaple the all tar hows shit
we ate how and got coals law
the element of sir prize
as seen from brown eyes in autumn
nut aum aut num anu mut
come ear dog and be one bone
nine you ninny nanny eat it
and make nothing from nine as its a dream
a thought sister six had while daydreaming
lieing upside down on a green gable
staring at purple clouds
why not tone a true was
as oui non
u are in oui
o i am in oui
yes u are
u, i o
i o u
where are o u are i ui
i do a ui see, o
u i c o do a codo
take it in the back
take it from the back
give it up the front
fronts side
id se it if it faces me
the front side
yet who is side
if side is what and where some how
ewwwwww weeeee yeah
dats side left over from the right moment
and given to the poor chap with
shit stained drawers
and a naaaaa there wasn't
really any reel e
lik an it
cast off solidity
so lid it y?
sol i dit y?
why ask why?
why cast out
why out cast
cast out why
oh twike assed
te wik dass eho
oh home e
za sleepy place
man so many anne sirs
and my paw kits are tiny
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